March 31, 2008

thank you, dad.

you taught me plenty.
and i've been letting you down.
all i can say is sorry.
i write this while we're still around.
all this time. you never surrendered.
you've always wanted me to be the better.
everything you do is only for the good.
i try to follow your steps, if only i could.
i try to make you proud.
time and time again.
you kept me from dark clouds.
and the cold, heavy rain.
i know we ain't living the easy life.
like we used to back then.
but we've got everything we need.
doesn't matter, i understand.
dad, it's you who shaped who i am.
and you are the only man who can.
you're always there to make me feel strong.
please forgive all the things i've done wrong.
i open my eyes, and now im glad i can see,
all my life, so many things you've shown me.

March 27, 2008

the idiot we trashed. :)

one unlucky fool pulled the trigger of me and arshad today after our cross country. the story begins when we went to her shop to get some snacks. that damn lady came to me shouting "ini barang bukan free kena bayar punya!" as i pointed my finger at one pau. i was like hell what? i kept calm and just look at arshad with a blur face. then arshad opened fire saying "dekni nak juai ka xmau, bek tutup kedai". i bought the pau anyway. then, after a while, the idiot kept looking at us two with her wrinkled face. we can tell, she wants hell. so we mess around with her. arshad and me trashed her place up. then she came like a bull to pick up the rubbish we threw on the floor. later, azman opened the fridge to take one water bottle he wished to buy. the lady said' "jaga dia jaga dia!" almost as loudly as lee yu im. then arshad raised hell by staring her face for quite some time. she was looking at arshad's face too.
we calmed down. but we knew we should have started a riot. these idiots just care about money. i say go to hell. we only came here because it is the only store there. so don't think your store is so good grandma.

we'll be back.

this ain't over.

March 01, 2008

just another distraction.

Everywhere I go, I'll be missing you,
To make you smile is what I'm trying to do,
For every minute I try to keep you off my mind,
Time goes by, and I get left behind,
Each day I wake up, I fall back to sleep,
Thinking of you all the time drowns me so deep,
Looking through your eyes, and all I can see,
That every shit I dream of will never ever be,
Why do I love you, when your love's not true,
And why do I care, there's someone else in you,
Staring at the same moon, sharing everything we feel,
Truth is you never stared, never cared, and never will,
It sucks to know that I'm holding on to nothing,
But it's better yet than not even knowing,
Right now I just have to keep it together,
So the world won't know, I'm just a dreamer.

yours truly,